Madonna described in detail how she was raped shortly after moving to New York City at the age of 19, in a narrative revealing her life so far.
In an article for Harper’s Bazaar, the singer said she was forced to climb onto the roof of a building at knife threat and attacked. The first-person account with a fashion photo shoot covers Madonna’s life, from growing up in the American Midwest and away from home, to her marriage and children.
“New York wasn’t all I thought it would be. It didn’t welcome me with open arms. For the first year, I was held at gunpoint. He raped me on the roof of a building that was dragged in with a knife again, and my apartment was divided into three times. I don’t know why; why; I had nothing of value after they took my radio set the first time, “she wrote.
Madonna says her breath robbed her of the size and scope of the city, and she was “afraid of nonsense and terrified of the smell of urine and vomiting everywhere.”
“I try to be a professional dancer, and pay my rent by posing naked to attend art classes, and staring at people staring at me naked. They dare to think that I am anything but the shape they were trying to capture with pencils and charcoal. Defiant. Determined to stay put. Alive. To make it happen. But that was difficult and he was lonely, and I had to dare myself every day to keep going, “she said.
Moving to England after marrying director Jay Ritchie was “not easy for me”.
Just because we speak the same language does not mean that we speak the same language. I didn’t understand there was still a splitting system. I didn’t understand the pub culture. I didn’t understand that being overtly ambitious was frowned upon. Once again, I felt lonely. But I stuck with it and found my way, and I grew to love English wit, Georgian architecture, sticky toffee pudding and English countryside. There is nothing more beautiful than the English countryside. “
Madonna described the decision to adopt her son David from Malawi as “another bold chapter” in her life and take her back to “another dirty storm.”
She wrote, “I was accused of kidnapping, child trafficking and using my famous muscle to jump forward, bribe government officials and witchcraft, you name it.” “That was a great experience. It was a real low point in my life. I could have my head around people who are giving me a hard time simulating masturbation on stage or publishing my own sex book, and even kissing Britney Spears at an awards ceremony, but trying to save a child’s life It was not something I thought I would be punished for. Friends tried to rejoice at me by telling me to think of it all as the labor pains we all have to go through at birth. This was vaguely comfortable. Anyway, I went through it. I survived. “
When she adopted her second child, Mercy James, the singer said she wore her “armor”.
“I tried to be more prepared. I got myself ready. This time a Malawian judge accused me of being a divorcee, I was an invalid mother. I fought the Supreme Court and won. It took about another year and many lawyers. I still got kicked out of me, but that didn’t hurt me. Looking at me. Back, I don’t regret a single moment of fighting. “